Never Be

It used to be
I would rather die
Than accept my normalcy
But now I'm dying
Because I'm dying
To be a normal person
And for people not to look at me
And stop and stare
Because I'm not like them

I'll never be
A normal person
The world will always be
My greatest lament
Life will always be
An un-winable fight
I'll always be
Alone at night
Wishing I could be
What I see on t.v.

Normal is what
I want to be
Normal is what
I'll never be
People will always
Stare at me
And speculate
What I am

A spectacle
That's what I am
For the world's amusement

Here I stand
Alone, holding my own hand
Praying for the day
When I won't have to say
'I hate the world
And everyone in it
I hate this world
And everything about it'

Because the world will say
I'm just another part of it
Blending in, like camoflauge
No one stopping to stare because
I'm just like you, you see
It's just buried deep inside of me

I dream of having normalcy
I dream of being happy
I dream, and I wake
to a world that I hate
But, when I close
my eyes, I see
the normal one
I'll never be